Hang in there!
"The nights of crying your eyes out give way to days of laughter".
There are times when you can just be sitting and wondering if you're doing what you're supposed to do in life; if what you've chosen to live was the right thing... If the place you've chose to stay or to go is the one that was meant to be...
I've thought in all of these thoughts when the answer won't come and the struggle gets harder everyday; the fact that not a positive reply has come out from an area of my life has taken me to think that all of this was not worth it. But the objective of doubt and fear is to doubt from your purpose and fear from a greater outcome.
When I'm afraid and I think nothing will come out, it happens sooner or later, one way to other, He makes it all better. When doubt has filled my heart and it constantly does, is because I'm aware I'm lacking faith in that area of my life. I don't think something great will come for my life,
when I cry out loud at night; that's when grace comes, that's when days of laughter will come.
I'm not sure what's next in my life, I'm not certain of what door will open in front of me, or even which door will be closed because it not meant to be; but I know something for sure: That I was meant to do great things for His kingdom; and that even my future seems cloudy, He will come at the right time and bright it all up... And I think that's His thought of love for you too! So hang in there with me pal!
"There is no room in love for fear.Well-formed love banishes fear." 1 John 4:18